Allyfeel

Sometimes I am so puzzled with people who do not realize how many kids they have. When they are off to somewhere, they can just forget about counting or checking all the kids with them before heading to somewhere. Reading the news today just make me so piss, how could parents being so careless leaving their kid in a locked car and leaving them to die with an excuse of forgetting about them? Bullshit! Don’t tell me, he has never checked the car for a sleeping toddler before leaving or head count their kids if they have four. By the way, four kids are not a lot for them to forget. FUCK! Stupid FUCKER!

I am feeling so down lately. Not sure is it the pregnancy thing. I have no mood to do anything except sleeping and laze around. I feel like I have dropped from very high buildings to a very deep hole underneath the ground. There is nothing there, only a glimpse of sunlight. I had a dream last night. I dreamt of my mom’s fascination of keeping a bear, tiger, crocodile, hippo and a huge tortoise in our backyard. She even digs a swimming pool to accommodate these creatures. I only remember I was the only one who protested her action furiously. She would walk to the pool daily to visit them. No one dares to approach the backyard and it was so dirty and deserted. I wonder if this dream tells me that I am afraid of something.

Grrr…I was late today sending bb to school. I must make it a point not to be late again as we stayed so near to the kindergarten. There is no reason for me to be late. Please drill it in your head. Wake up early and don’t be so lazy.

What is the use of putting up anti-smoking signs when people in Malaysia don’t border? Often or not the sign is just a decorative item in toilets, restaurants, air-con buildings, public places and etc. I just couldn’t understand why people still smoke in areas that is labeled NO SMOKING. To them it’s just a sign, no effects at all. Why? Because the owner that put up the signs also never border to stop it’s customers from doing so. Once I was in an air-condition restaurant whereby smoking are not allowed but when I compliant that someone is smoking, guess what the restaurant people say? “We can’t do anything”. WHAT? Then don’t put up the bloody sign. It’s so irritating especially seeing those young girls carrying lighted sticks of ciggy happily chatting away while it burns and leaving ashes on the floor and polluted the entire food court and stair cases in office building. Another one is those advertising aunty that have to light a ciggy when they make their big business. There are sign...